September 20th, 2017
September 17th, 2017
Today existed to remind me that (and why) I will most likely not be able to work a full time job again.
If I muster enough energy for dinner and a shower, it will be a minor miracle.
Current Music: Side to Side (KHS cover)
September 15th, 2017
|03:12 pm - I ramble about writing (and traverse unexpected territory)|
Writing has always been a central part of my life and even my identity, even when I didn't practice it regularly. It's been a background goal for me to become a writer even though all the other ambitions that I've had and discarded. Eventually I had to make a hard decision and I decided to pursue writing as a profession and career, not a hobby. I still have a day job, obviously. And I still hobby write (fanfiction, and other things). But the goal is to write professionally.
Writing is a frequently frustrating occupation. It's hard work, and it's work that's often undervalued, sometimes even as it's in demand. As most fanfic writers have noticed. Still I've had some amazing writerly moments in my life, outside of the aspiration to go pro and alongside some bitter disappointments (in myself and in others). I wanted to write a lot about those, since one of them happened just recently and since I could always use a morale boost to my creativity.
( Read more... )
*glances up* What the fuck am I even talking about, who can even tell.
(actual playlist I was listening to when I was writing this.)
Current Music: Rolling in the Deep
Current Mood: fuck i'm a mess
September 14th, 2017
|08:21 pm - Making a snack list|
I like being snacklistmaker for the choir. I get to mix people and dates around, I get to decide who goes where, I get to latex the list and print it. It's fun.
Then I get to do it again, because no one* bothered telling me which dates didn't work for them.
*Actually, someone did bother, but I never got her sms. Weird. And annoying.
Current Mood: busy
|06:52 pm - Strange Times in Hazel's Head|
I'm experiencing a wave of nostalgia for my old fanfic that is both powerful and inexplicable.
|02:29 pm - To-do list|
Because I have a sieve-like memory let's have these all listed down so I won't forget:
02 - rs_games start posting. Time to start reading and reccing!
02 - Port Mafia week starts. [No idea what to do for this, but I want to do Chuuya/Akutagawa.]
08 - Fractured Fairy Tales start announcing participants. (I won't get in but lol.)
09 - ZEcret Santa open for sign-ups. (Will have to ask Jinger about this. Also need to check the FAQs and rules so I can ask ficcers to have an AO3 ready.)
10 - Souyo Zine start shipping. Idk if any of my flisters care, but SouYo is one of my fave ships in the Megaten franchise sorry. And also all profits go to charity.
09 - ZEcret Santa sign-ups close.
11 - ZEcret Santa assignments handed out.
14 - [This might not happen but last year this was the deadline for the Festive Bastion sign-ups so I'm marking that.]
25 - mini-fest deadline of submission.
01 - mini-fest posting starts.
20 - ZEcret Santa posting starts.
September 11th, 2017
September 9th, 2017
|09:55 pm - *is buried*|
Got buried under homework. Doubt I'll see the light much before December. Also still working as a pharmacy tech. Expecting to self-implode there soon. (Not planning to, but my track record says something is going to happen there, soon.)
I'm in two English classes, French 102, Classics: Roman Spectacle, and Geology.
And it's not going well. Not at all.
I just... am falling apart physically and mentally I'm not doing well either.
I still haven't had my sleep study done, and it's been months. And I've noticed that I'm still falling asleep in class, even though my first class doesn't start until 10.05am.
I just want something to go right....
September 8th, 2017
|12:14 pm - Yuri Jam & Life Update|
The first week of Yuri Game Jam went relatively well. It's hard to tell at this point how well things will proceed, but I have a team and a solid design and a solid story outline. The biggest challenge (though by no means the only one) will be my inexperience with managing other people. I'm not that great at timetables and such, so figuring out deadlines will have to be a collaborating effort. I expect things to get fairly chaotic at certain points, but I'm hopeful we'll manage through the mess.
I've posted multiple times to Tumblr about my new Discord channel and I'm also aiming to post updates to the jam forums. Might post to Lemma Soft too, if I find the energy to keep up with it all.
Health-wise things are going not great, and there's not much more I can add about that.
Things are work are okay but for various reasons my direct supervisor right now is much more micro-managing than I'm used to.
There's a lot going on but I don't really have the wherewithal to analyze it all.